Self exaltation prayers has never been effective, in fact, it has done me more harm then good. Who ever want to be first will be last, and who ever try to save one's life will lose it. He who exalt himself will be humbled. All this points to only one conclusion, don't ever, ever pray for self. At least not at first anyway.
Every time I personally try to pray for myself, trying to save something, while not making other first priority to begin with, I end up getting a no respond, or worse, losing whatever it is that I requested right away after persistence. In fact, the Lord make it a point to immediately take away that which I ask for for myself first. The Lord just responded to these prayers saying, Are you more favorable then others? And then there it goes, I found out a few days later, instead of gaining it, whatever it is, or was, I just lost it in prayer requesting.
Way to harm myself. It's 100% self induced failure, all of the time. A sure defeat, I was so sad. :(
Eventually I find out that about a year ago, I made the habit of cursing and bashing others, not knowing that by my own words I am condemned, so all the Donald Trump style bashing down others, Reapback effect be done unto me. I judged others only to find myself am judged the very first, so all the vicious harm I wished for others, yes even thinking about it, returns to me A++ with me being the prime target, first to take the blunt. It didn't take long for me to discover while I was reaping my follies, that Hey! This is pretty effective! Look, it all returns to me, a 100% all of the time!
Only a year ago, fake SAs would be telling me, right when a wrong was done me by others came to mind, to judge them so and so, and it was exactly on point situational. To which I would responds by saying a steadily, YES! Let it be done unto them!! Now I realize, as far as Divine Variable calculations goes, that person who wronged me IS me. And what I was really being done to is letting the enemy egged me right on to attack and condemn, perhaps it'll reach them, yes, but I would be first. Why judge others, when I will be the first to receive the cruel judgment myself, they're not worth it.
Case Study: 01, Financial Defeat
I spat at a local church enemy a year ago, letting fake SA egg me on to condemn him to starve for hurting me so and so, only to find that at every turn, my plans for business financial success is thwarted, even to the point when I had the money to make the business go, only to find sudden creditors taken it all away, and my business crashed for 'bad luck', and I end up starving all over again. It didn't matter how much faith I had to step out, how positive I felt or thought about it, what I gave out to others, my wishes and all this, returns to me 100%.
Worse yet, I end up back at that church after my business crashed, and the same punk kid who bashed me before, I end up with his mother hitting me and sly talking about how poor I am. Rather than winning, I bash them back a year ago to set myself up to be bashed by them some more! :( It was .a devastating defeat and wretching humiliation. But all the while I was learning, with strange realization that I gave out that humiliation to them in the first place. I only had myself to blame.
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If prayer for self first is ineffective, and only lead to personal losts. And if praying for other's harms, wishing for them so, and it 100% be done unto me first before they ever receive it, then consider the following case study.
Case Study: 02, Brain Damage Healing
About six months ago, I prayed for my neighbor brain surgery post cancer. And now last month I injured my brain, and when I asked for brain damage healing, Lord Jesus responded and it took all but half a second.
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Though it feel good to bash others, Donald Trump style pay back, for whatever social respect superiority, what feels good at the moment often leads to disaster for tomorrow, and in this case it most certainly does. I must ensure a favorable tomorrow by taking the steps to consolidating a desirable outcome today. Though it might not seem favorable, and often make no sense to others, what I do today, while my enemies curse me and plots to harm me and wish the worse for me, and I spat back with how that very same enemy will succeed in ivy league schooling and all this financial prosperity or something. Yet come the Reapback time period, me first. Have a little vision. Not to mention, pull the enemy out of their own follies, thwart their own harm, and Reapback that too! Be greedy for grace and support advantages, given out, given back to me, a real commodity. The only time to consolidate it is when I don't need it!
Conclusion
Avoid praying for self all together, but never stop thinking for myself. Ask myself what I want, lay it all out, then give it to every body else I ever know. Today, I want a simple Starbucks job at a good location, exalt every other locations of Starbucks with good individuals, don't be afraid to be bombastic. And ask that every one of my friends and foes alike to acquire a Starbucks job immediately by tonight's end at all these locations. Yes, give out only what I want back, and let it returns to me.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Spiritual Warfare: Tag Tail Attack
Case Study: 01
Request for brain damage received one night, Lord Jesus said via impression, "I would like to heal you now", and not half a second, and my swollen brain damage was healed, felt just great. But no sooner did the healing, the un swollen effect occur, I heard a voice saying, He didn't do it!! You're not healed! He didn't do it!!
Case Study: 02
After having defeated enemy dynamic attack: Angel of Light, I decided to all out push love my way against all my enemies. While I was praying for my enemies well being and protection and all this, I read SA saying, so will I save you, and you will be a blessing. And, it will be given to you as well. But then after the Lord spoke to me, I always read verses after verses of what seem like continual SA, then you will fall victim to them! You will die! And something like, but you will never have power over them! And some more taunts like You will no longer walk proudly, you will fall under calamity. You will die. It stressed me out, there was no good reason to it, and I didn't know why God was angry with me. So I swore back, but it didn't help. The SA kept coming the more I reacted to it.
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It made no sense, I finally said to myself. Why taunt me? I knew I falter out, the enemy dispositioned me and my servitude game, I went over my head after one win, and the enemy's dynamic attack sink me deep, but why taunt me now, when I'm doing exactly what Lord Jesus is pleased with me doing? Few weeks I continue to respond to it, these SAs that seemed out of place, I swore back more and more. But one day the Lord spoke again, saying: Do you still not understand? Do you still not understand? And I naturally, being a dim wit, said no. Then SA read, you've been faithful. An enemy did this.
Every single time God speak or do something positive in my life, the enemy is right behind tagging the tail, hoping I'll be over my head, caught off guard enough, after a win like big time brain damage healing, or the Lord speaking favorably to me via SA or IM channel, that I might slip again enough, the mind still receptive, to suck in whatever they are giving me. But by the time brain damage healing occured, I have had enough past experience, patterns to go by, to expect something like this. I held guard expecting them coming. It didn't end with a few words of nos after the brain damage healing, the very next day, they kept coming. I heard a voice saying to me, in the exact same voice that the Lord spoke to me the day prior, Go to the kitchen sink, open the compartment beneath. So I naturally follow like the dim wit that I am, and the voice spoke again, You will find a knife there. Yeah, yeah~, USE IT! Kill you! Kill them! (some local enemies of mine.) By the time I open the compartment, I find without my own prior knowledge, sure enough, two bone chopping kitchen knives waiting within.
Had I not seen enough SA patterns, where the enemy always tag God's tail, where every real message from God was sent via the bible or IM, and immediately follows with some unreasonable taunts, I would have thought Lord Jesus just spoke to me again, right there and then, and thus confused with the identity of the speak behind, injure myself or what worse. The fake IM, with some truth to it divination backed voice sounded exactly the same as the IM the day prior, the one where Lord Jesus said I would like to heal you now. Well, why play such a big number card on me? I wonder, when they know I'll spot it. Now they just made known to me a whole new set to fake impression patterns and I didn't readily spot before. Most of the Psalms confirmation I had prior a few months back was spotted right away, heck, these guys practically gave me an education on the subject.
It is all so tactically unsound, when there was no need for them to move against me whatsoever, playing a hand like that on me. It's ego, plain and simple, demon possession case studies reveal that during the casting out, those egotists like to reveal their own name, their identify, before they summit and leave. Beings like that, all ego, some time purely emotional driven, make mistakes, they made me wiser by that one heavy hand, perhaps with further egging them on, one might prompt them to even more revealing.
Request for brain damage received one night, Lord Jesus said via impression, "I would like to heal you now", and not half a second, and my swollen brain damage was healed, felt just great. But no sooner did the healing, the un swollen effect occur, I heard a voice saying, He didn't do it!! You're not healed! He didn't do it!!
Case Study: 02
After having defeated enemy dynamic attack: Angel of Light, I decided to all out push love my way against all my enemies. While I was praying for my enemies well being and protection and all this, I read SA saying, so will I save you, and you will be a blessing. And, it will be given to you as well. But then after the Lord spoke to me, I always read verses after verses of what seem like continual SA, then you will fall victim to them! You will die! And something like, but you will never have power over them! And some more taunts like You will no longer walk proudly, you will fall under calamity. You will die. It stressed me out, there was no good reason to it, and I didn't know why God was angry with me. So I swore back, but it didn't help. The SA kept coming the more I reacted to it.
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It made no sense, I finally said to myself. Why taunt me? I knew I falter out, the enemy dispositioned me and my servitude game, I went over my head after one win, and the enemy's dynamic attack sink me deep, but why taunt me now, when I'm doing exactly what Lord Jesus is pleased with me doing? Few weeks I continue to respond to it, these SAs that seemed out of place, I swore back more and more. But one day the Lord spoke again, saying: Do you still not understand? Do you still not understand? And I naturally, being a dim wit, said no. Then SA read, you've been faithful. An enemy did this.
Every single time God speak or do something positive in my life, the enemy is right behind tagging the tail, hoping I'll be over my head, caught off guard enough, after a win like big time brain damage healing, or the Lord speaking favorably to me via SA or IM channel, that I might slip again enough, the mind still receptive, to suck in whatever they are giving me. But by the time brain damage healing occured, I have had enough past experience, patterns to go by, to expect something like this. I held guard expecting them coming. It didn't end with a few words of nos after the brain damage healing, the very next day, they kept coming. I heard a voice saying to me, in the exact same voice that the Lord spoke to me the day prior, Go to the kitchen sink, open the compartment beneath. So I naturally follow like the dim wit that I am, and the voice spoke again, You will find a knife there. Yeah, yeah~, USE IT! Kill you! Kill them! (some local enemies of mine.) By the time I open the compartment, I find without my own prior knowledge, sure enough, two bone chopping kitchen knives waiting within.
Had I not seen enough SA patterns, where the enemy always tag God's tail, where every real message from God was sent via the bible or IM, and immediately follows with some unreasonable taunts, I would have thought Lord Jesus just spoke to me again, right there and then, and thus confused with the identity of the speak behind, injure myself or what worse. The fake IM, with some truth to it divination backed voice sounded exactly the same as the IM the day prior, the one where Lord Jesus said I would like to heal you now. Well, why play such a big number card on me? I wonder, when they know I'll spot it. Now they just made known to me a whole new set to fake impression patterns and I didn't readily spot before. Most of the Psalms confirmation I had prior a few months back was spotted right away, heck, these guys practically gave me an education on the subject.
It is all so tactically unsound, when there was no need for them to move against me whatsoever, playing a hand like that on me. It's ego, plain and simple, demon possession case studies reveal that during the casting out, those egotists like to reveal their own name, their identify, before they summit and leave. Beings like that, all ego, some time purely emotional driven, make mistakes, they made me wiser by that one heavy hand, perhaps with further egging them on, one might prompt them to even more revealing.
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